Friday, August 6, 2010

Putting My Skills to the Test

Oh wow, funny how vacations really force you to put your "healthy living" skills to the test. I have officially given up tracking until I return from my family vacation on Sunday - but am making many, many efforts to eat well. What keeps getting me are the portion sizes - does no one in the world eat regular portion sizes? Yikes!

Thanks to those of you who commented on my post yesterday - It really was a big day for me.

I've been thinking a lot about a former post I wrote about my issues with over-eating and being a work-aholic. Well, this morning I was in the shower and I realized that these qualities of mine that I am trying to fix do not define me. In my previous post, I mention that these negative qualities, are in part, a part of my identity (and I really like who I am).

While in the shower this morning, I realized that just because I cannot be an over-eater anymore, this does not mean that I have to stop loving food. See, what I realized is that, at the core of my identity - I love food (all kinds of food), I don't like over-eating. What I had done (and still do) was confuse the love of food with my over-consumption of food - when in fact, they are two completely different things. Thus, I can still love food and not binge on it (duh!). Thus my identity = love food, not over-consume it!

The same thing goes for my over-working - that is: just because I enjoy working hard, that does not mean that I have to spend every waking moment of my life working... again there are two different concepts here.

Let me tell you bloggies, this is a revelation for me. Something that I have been stuck on for a long while. It's funny that the answer came to me while I was singing in the shower - of all the places.

Next step here it to embrace this - and really start to figure out the different between loving food and over-eating it (this may seem simple - but for a person like me who spent the majority of my life over-eating - the line between them is very fine and I need to look very, very closely)!

3 comments:

  1. Hi! Thanks for finding me! :) Looks like you have been doing well along your weigh loss journey! Great job! :) I like that you set goals for yourself- very important!

    Interesting subject you brought up. I love food- but used to binge eat. I still love large amounts of food, but I pick healthier ones instead- and I try to not stuff my face in 5 seconds. lol We almost need to trick our minds into a new pattern. Over eating is hard to beat- but manageable. :)

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  2. Lisa, you totally just blew my poor mind this evening!! That is a total AHA moment for you, and I want to thank you so much for sharing it because it clicked with me too. I love food, but does that mean I have to over-eat? No.

    Chicky
    www.wanna-bethin.blospot.com

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  3. Wow.....very excellent thinking. So me....I shall ponder this today. Wrap my mind around it...thank you for making me think!

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