Since embarking on this health journey, I have to come to realize that my over-eating, binge-like issues are emotional. This means, that I over-eat when I am feeling some sort of emotion that I am having difficulty dealing with.
For me, anxiety and stress are the big ones - not so much sadness, lonliness - but my nerves cause me to eat - a lot.
These past couple weeks - although I have not completely slid back into my old ways of overflowing plates of pasta, full rows of oreo cookies and piles of kraft dinner - I have noticed my over-consumption issues start to come back.
Why - you ask - well, you see I have an accepted offer on a condo! My very own, very first condo!
I am so nervious about this purchase, not only will I be falling head first into debt - but Ill have to be a responsible person and *gulp* an adult!
I feel anxious about it - I feel anxious whenever a change happens in my life - and I have noticed that without thinking, I turn to food - and lots of it.
Now, for the most part, I have learned to control my binges since I started Weight Watchers - but still - I find myself having to take a few steps back many times and ask myself why I am I eating - for hunger or to satisfy my angst.
The problem has been recognized - but it is truly a daily battle to not eat my emotions. Some days, I fall back into my old ways more than others and over-consume. Most days, I am able to recognize this problem and resist every fibre of my being that is begging me to eat a plate of pasta and cheese bread until I cannot move.
Ah, the joys of having an eating disorder!
Hey, fellow Vancouverite. How exciting your first place. Way to go. Do not - I repeat DO NOT let this condo take away your fantastic progress so far. You will never forgive it (lol).
ReplyDeleteFor emotional eating I suggest the book 50 ways to soothe yourself without food by Susan Albers - good stuff. Come visit me sometime at http://haveyougainedweight.blogspot.com/
Hey Lisa :) I too eat my emotions, happy, sad, angry dosen't matter, I eat. I suffer from the always hungry disease. Unfortunetly, as you know, this means we always have to ask ourselves why we're eating. Good for you for catching yourself in the first place and recognizing that your back sliping.
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