Ah stress, I have not missed you. I'm going to be at the peak of my stress threshold until Sunday and to top it all off, my family is coming to stay with me in my one bedroom apartment for the weekend. *sigh*. Do you every feel like running away to Mexico, working at a margareta hut and living on the beach? Sometimes I wonder if life would be better if I moved to Mexico...
No gym for me tonight - very diappointed in myself - but I am going to drag my little sister to the gym for a good two hour workout tomorrow, totally going to kick her butt! She wont even see it coming.
Today at work there was a catered reception that I was obligated to attend and although I stuck to eating carrots and veggies, I did cave and have two slices of brie cheese and two slices of french bread (and some smoked salmon and 1 tortilla chip)! Went back to the office to log in the points on weight watchers, it all came out to 9 points! Yikes. I wont be making that mistake anytime soon again.
Even though I am continuing to stay on plan and exercising regularily, I somehow feel like I am not giving this my all. I know I can do better and WANT to do better - What do you think bloggies? At what point do you feel comletely satisfied with your weight loss performance? Do you ever feel like running away to Mexico to drink margaretas all the live long day?
Hi Lisa,
ReplyDeleteI've only just found you blog, but I've been following it with interest, probably because I was only a little heavier than you when I started my journey. I do have to tell you, it's taken me nearly two years to finally see the end of it.
In terms of "giving it my all" one of the most valuable thins I've learned along this path is that any weight loss plan isn't really a weight loss plan at all - it's a lifestyle change, and at if it is going to be successful, it has to be sustainable. And that means there is no way I can expect myself to be 100% perfect 100% of the time. It isn't realistic, and it isn't fair. Stress, hormones, life, everything reaches down on us and influences us, and sometimes, that influence means I just want a chocolate chip cookie, dammit. I'm not going to feel bad about it, I'm not going to punish myself - because there's nothing inherently wrong with having one chocolate chip cookie every once in a while. As long as I spend *most of my time* (I use the 80/20 ratio) committed to healthy eating and I maintain an active lifestyle, then, the other 20% will balance itself out.
Best of luck with your own journey.
Cassandra
Oh Lisa, I am certainly up there with you on the stress wagon and although moving to Mexico would be nice, it would be running away from my life. God knows, I'll probably end up feeling the same way in Mexico eventually, and one can't be running all over the globe to escape ones short comings eh?
ReplyDeleteI am the QUEEN of falling off the wagon, as I'm sure you've read in my blog. I've had binge weekend upon binge weekend, and one thing I've learned, is that its getting back on that counts. Sometimes you have to own your fall, make it a real dozy so you don't do it again for a long time ya know what I mean? My mother always says "You shouldn't live to eat, you should be eating to live" Well that's a load of crap. I love food, I love to drink and eat delicious cheese and decadent desserts, and I'm certainly not going to give that up. The trick is to not feel guilty, enjoy what you ate and move on. Just my humble opinion.
You also mentioned that you don't feel like you are giving this your all. It's nearly impossible to be pumped up about losing weight all the damn time. You have a life and a damn good one I'm sure, that probably takes up allot of time and effort. Including a strict weight loss regiment and exercise routine is difficult at the best of times, so my friend, don't be so hard on yourself :) I think your doing an amazing job, maybe you need to think that too! I hope that was useful. *hugs*
Thank you Cassandra's for the super kind words. You are both SOOO right - a.) this needs to be sustainable and b.) I am doing frickin awesome! Sometimes it takes some awesome people (who have been there before) to make you stop and think and remind you how far you've actually come!
ReplyDeleteMucho gracias for the reminder!
I think a big problem of mine (no pun intended) is that I am in just such a hurry to get this weight off- I want to be done with it NOW and just be able to focus on maintaining a lower weight. Alas, that is simply not possible and I've got to accept where I am (noting how far i've come). If it takes me two years to get it off, well... then it takes me two years, there is simply nothing I can do about it other than stay on track and on plan.
Cassandra (Wavylove) are you sure we don't have the same mother?