Happy first day of May bloggies!
Today was an interesting day. I took on the role of "supportive cheerleader" for my friend who was making an offer on a house - that's right, not a condo, or even a townhouse a real house! I thought, going into the day that I was going to be struggling with some jealousy issues (because I have been looking into buying a condo for the last year), as well as fellings of disappointment in myself - but to my surprise - I was happy for her, and that was all.
This whole putting myself first mentality that I have been embracing is not only making me a fitter and healthier person, but it's also making me a better person overall. Today I felt very content with where I am in life (in comparison to my other friends) and am really sure of myself that not only will I reach my goal weight by December 31st as planned, but will also have found a condo for myself by that time as well and cleared off all my credit card debt.
I often have to stop and remind myself that life is not a competition, or a game to see who does best - because there is no way to measure who wins. With my new mentality, I am completely letting loose my inner selfish, self-centeredness and embracing loving myself and it feels really great.
Enough philosophy. Today was not the best eating day. I went out for lunch with my friend who is buying a house and ordered a veggie quesadilla with salad and with no sour cream and easy cheese. After sending the plate back to the kitchen three times (no kidding - how hard is it to make a quesadilla?) I endedup eating the quesadilla with way too much cheese on it. I am mad at myself for just eating it anyway - because I paid $12 for it and I should at least get what I ordered. Next time - I will send it back to the kitchen again if this ever happens again. After all, this does go against my principle of putting myself first - doesn't it! After I ate the pile of cheese on my plate, I had a horrible stomach ache and am now convinced that I am allergic to cheese (my own personal death penality). It's weird because I can drink milk and eat yogurt and Babybel light cheeses no problem - but the real cheese I ate today did not sit well. Also, when I used to eat whatever I wanted in copious amounts (i.e. cheese and more cheese) I used to ALWAYS have stomach aches. At 233 lbs, I remember always getting a sore stomach after a meal. What's the link? Cheese. Literally - food for thought here!
Lastly, I skipped a friends party tonight and went to the gym (feeling guilty about the pile of cheese I ate) and managed to burn a whopping 1400 calories! *pats self on back* It was 2 hours on the elliptical and I managed to squeeze in about 10 minutes worth of weights. One of my May goals is to do 30 minutes of weights / week. So, I have got to do the remaining 20 minutes tomorrow. And, I stepped on the scale (official weigh in isn't until tomorrow night though) and the number staring back at me was 202. I want to be 201 by tomorrow. I will make this happen - just you wait and see bloggers...
OH! and PS - all my size 14 work pants fit me like a glove now! AND I did the elliptical at a resistance of 6 for the whole two hours today - both these May goals didn't take long to tackle!
Oh cheese...I love you so :)
ReplyDeleteSidenote: you had to send your plate back three times and they still got your meal wrong?! Holy crap, is it really that difficult to just listen to your customers?! Good for you for being assertive the first 3 times :) SOunds to me like you worked all that cheese off too so I wouldn't worry about that.
Way to kick your goals' butts! You're doing so great :)
I have a huge problem with Dairy products too. Cheese, usally high fat cheese, always makes me fairly queasy. Just as well right?
ReplyDeleteYou are continually motivating me to excersize! I must must must take note from your book!