Since yesterday's realization that all my moodiness has been a result of my anger towards myself for letting my body balloon out to 233 lbs - I've been taking a lot of time to think about how I am going to forgive myself. I really want to say, "all is forgiven - let's move on" - but really it's not that simple. I can say that to myself but I certainly will not mean it. And what matters here is that I actually do forgive myself for letting my body go.
So, that - is still a work in progress.
Everyone who reads my blog knows that I love yoga. I love how strong it makes my body feel. Last night at yoga, I found myself wishing that I could do yoga all day everyday - and then it occurred to me - why can't I? Well, of course there are limitations as I do have to work for a living, and I can't just do yoga, eat and sleep - that certainly would be too much of a good thing...
However, in light of this, I am creating a challenge for myself for the holidays. Since I finish work for the year on the 17th, and don't go back until the 1st week of January - that means I have 15 days. That's 360 hours! 21,600 minutes. Of course much of that time will be spent sleeping, looking for Santa and partying with the family - but I challenge myself to doing yoga everyday for those 15 days and getting at least 1 hour of cardio in every day for those 15 days. This certainly is do-able and it will help keep my body strong over the holidays.
I shall call this my 15 Day Holiday Activity Challenge.
I can't wait! I am going to come back to work / life in the new year feeling strong and healthy. Whoop!
Woo hoo! Good luck!
ReplyDeleteI might have to pinch this idea. I am looking at doing something similar over the Christmas period to make sure I don't do anything silly and put on 500lbs.
ReplyDeleteGreat idea!
ReplyDeleteI can empathize with your feelings of self-anger...I am going through something similar, but my feelings focus more on a lack of trust or faith in myself.