I know I said that this month was going to be "positive May" - but I need to get this negativity out of my head, and this is the only place I can think of putting it.
Top five things I hate about being "obese":
1.) Blouses don't fit me - my chest is too big for all button down blouses. I love blouses and wish I could wear them to work.
2.) When I get a box of chocolates as a gift at work my mom will say something like, "that's too bad - the last thing you need is a box of chocolates"
3.) When I go shopping and find something I like, I have to dig to the bottom of the pile (or back of the rack) to find the XL. I dig so quickly because I am embarrassed.
4.) It's expensive - I own a wardrobe of clothes that range from medium to XXL. It takes up a lot of space and all my favourite clothes never seem to fit me.
5.) The way I look in a bathing suit and my fear of the summer months (were I can't wear lots of clothes to cover my body.)
Sigh - now that that's out of my system, I can move on with my day in a more positive light.
Wednesday, May 8, 2013
Tuesday, May 7, 2013
Half-Marathon in October?
For those who don't know, back in October 2011 I ran a half-marathon and I did it in 3 hours.
Last Sunday, after a successful jog for the first time in... a long time, I put my running shoes on and went for a jog. I felt so great while I was jogging (I somehow completely forgot about the "runner's high") and the next day - no pain!
So, of course, coming off an excellent jog last weekend, I've decided that I am going to run the half-marathon coming up this October AGAIN - and this time around, i'll be doing it in under 3 hours. At least, that's the goal.
I'm super excited about doing the half-marathon and cannot wait to get back into a regular running training schedule.
This is going to be super fun - i'm so excited!
Last Sunday, after a successful jog for the first time in... a long time, I put my running shoes on and went for a jog. I felt so great while I was jogging (I somehow completely forgot about the "runner's high") and the next day - no pain!
So, of course, coming off an excellent jog last weekend, I've decided that I am going to run the half-marathon coming up this October AGAIN - and this time around, i'll be doing it in under 3 hours. At least, that's the goal.
I'm super excited about doing the half-marathon and cannot wait to get back into a regular running training schedule.
This is going to be super fun - i'm so excited!
Monday, May 6, 2013
Down Another 2lbs!
Yay!
Even though I went a little nuts on the food last night... and had one too many melted cheese on toasts....
I'm still down 2lbs today and am very happy about it!
... Soooo close to seeing those 180's on the scale again. It will feel so great to bust into them! Next week... next week...
Even though I went a little nuts on the food last night... and had one too many melted cheese on toasts....
I'm still down 2lbs today and am very happy about it!
... Soooo close to seeing those 180's on the scale again. It will feel so great to bust into them! Next week... next week...
Saturday, May 4, 2013
May the 4th Be with Me
Four days into May and so far, I'm doing well. I had a nice long sleep last night - woke up this morning and *almost* had melted reduced fat cheese on toast for breakfast, but then changed my mind when I saw the portobello mushrooms in the fridge and made myself some melted cheese on mushrooms with a little greek yogurt on top.
They weren't as tasty as I thought they would be - maybe they needed a little salsa? Maybe a poached egg on top? Something...
Then, I managed to fit in a 1.5 hour walk around my lovely city. It was such a beautiful day in Vancouver today - I even wore my sun glasses and no sweater! It's like summer has arrived.
Then I got home and I was lazing around. I impulsively decided to give the 30 Day Shread another go. In case you don't remember, for the first time ever, I gave the 30 Day Shread (which is only 20 minutes) a try last month and not only did I almost die, I could barely move for days afterwards! It was shameful!
After doing this monster video (on facking level one) again today, my whole body was shaking for a good hour afterwards, so I took a shower and am now praying that I am able to move when I wake up tomorrow.
While I was doing the video with my 8 pound weights, I realized - hey, this is what 8 pounds feels like.
I lifted the weight over and over agin trying to imagine caring that weight around with me everywhere I go - I lost 9 lbs last month - one pound more than that weight! It's hard to feel the different that a mere nine pounds makes on your body. Feeling that 8 pound weight - I'm more determined now to lose another 8 pounds, and another, and another, until i'm finally at a healthy weight!
They weren't as tasty as I thought they would be - maybe they needed a little salsa? Maybe a poached egg on top? Something...
Then, I managed to fit in a 1.5 hour walk around my lovely city. It was such a beautiful day in Vancouver today - I even wore my sun glasses and no sweater! It's like summer has arrived.
Then I got home and I was lazing around. I impulsively decided to give the 30 Day Shread another go. In case you don't remember, for the first time ever, I gave the 30 Day Shread (which is only 20 minutes) a try last month and not only did I almost die, I could barely move for days afterwards! It was shameful!
After doing this monster video (on facking level one) again today, my whole body was shaking for a good hour afterwards, so I took a shower and am now praying that I am able to move when I wake up tomorrow.
While I was doing the video with my 8 pound weights, I realized - hey, this is what 8 pounds feels like.
I lifted the weight over and over agin trying to imagine caring that weight around with me everywhere I go - I lost 9 lbs last month - one pound more than that weight! It's hard to feel the different that a mere nine pounds makes on your body. Feeling that 8 pound weight - I'm more determined now to lose another 8 pounds, and another, and another, until i'm finally at a healthy weight!
Friday, May 3, 2013
Monthly Goal Rewards
So, after not achieving the monthly goals I set for myself last month (I didn't take it very seriously because I didn't really start until April 8th or so), I decided that I would "punish" myself by not allowing myself to get the reward I set for myself: a much needed hair cut.
I'm using this hair cut as a serious incentive this month to actually take my monthly goals seriously. I haven't cut my hair in about 5 months and it's pretty raggidy-looking:
Plus, my hair is super long and it's just being a pain in my arse.
So, here's the deal I've made to myself: complete all your monthly goals and you can cut your hair - don't complete your goals, and you'll have to endure another month of ugly hair.
It's like i'm holding myself hostage. But, you gotta do what you gotta do!
I'm using this hair cut as a serious incentive this month to actually take my monthly goals seriously. I haven't cut my hair in about 5 months and it's pretty raggidy-looking:
Plus, my hair is super long and it's just being a pain in my arse.
So, here's the deal I've made to myself: complete all your monthly goals and you can cut your hair - don't complete your goals, and you'll have to endure another month of ugly hair.
It's like i'm holding myself hostage. But, you gotta do what you gotta do!
Thursday, May 2, 2013
Doing OK
May is off to a great start.
Yesterday I went to grab a sushi roll for myself for lunch, and after I opened the container I noticed that it had some sort of mystery meat in it :( I always order avacado rolls, so this was disappointing. I ended up throwing it away and opting for a 7-point meal replacement bar instead. I didn't let it get me down, I just put on my big-girl pants and moved on. Food is not everything.
Today, I caved a little bit - I went to a conference, that included a nicely catered lunch and, while I tried to restrain myself, I did indulge a little bit. But for the most part, I made smart choices and, even though I am over my daily points allowance for the day, I'm pretty proud of myself.
I've got my first visit to the gym of the month planned for tonight, which I am looking forward to - especially because I am starting to notice that my size 14 pants are too baggy for me and that I am looking smaller. I love that I can notice the difference! What's more, a peek at the scale this morning is making my upcoming weigh in promising!
Yesterday I went to grab a sushi roll for myself for lunch, and after I opened the container I noticed that it had some sort of mystery meat in it :( I always order avacado rolls, so this was disappointing. I ended up throwing it away and opting for a 7-point meal replacement bar instead. I didn't let it get me down, I just put on my big-girl pants and moved on. Food is not everything.
Today, I caved a little bit - I went to a conference, that included a nicely catered lunch and, while I tried to restrain myself, I did indulge a little bit. But for the most part, I made smart choices and, even though I am over my daily points allowance for the day, I'm pretty proud of myself.
I've got my first visit to the gym of the month planned for tonight, which I am looking forward to - especially because I am starting to notice that my size 14 pants are too baggy for me and that I am looking smaller. I love that I can notice the difference! What's more, a peek at the scale this morning is making my upcoming weigh in promising!
Wednesday, May 1, 2013
"Positive May"
These last few months, for some reason have been depressing ones for me. I don't know why, but i've been seriously down in the dumps since February. I'm depressed and I honestly have noting to be depressed about.
This morning, however, I woke up in different spirits. I almost didn't recognize the feeling (it's been so long), but I woke up in a positive mood and super excited to start a new month in a better, more positive mood. So that's what I'm doing. I'm calling May "Positive May"because i'm putting my pity party to bed and will aim to be nothing but grateful for all that I have.
That being said, my new monthly goals are:
"Positive May" Goals:
1.) Do 5 Hours of Yoga
2.) 6X 30 Day Shread
3.) 20 Hours of Cardio Activity
4.) Stay On Plan 30 Days
5.) Be at 180lbs by the end of the Month!
I cannot even express how happy being back in the 180's would feel for me. I was thinking this morning that, sticking to my plan, I could be the lowest weight of my adult life by the September rolls around, which would virtually mean a new me for the start of all the great things I am about to embark on in September...
I've got nothing but positive thoughts today and am going to try and hold onto that positivity for as long as possible!
Happy "Positive May"!
This morning, however, I woke up in different spirits. I almost didn't recognize the feeling (it's been so long), but I woke up in a positive mood and super excited to start a new month in a better, more positive mood. So that's what I'm doing. I'm calling May "Positive May"because i'm putting my pity party to bed and will aim to be nothing but grateful for all that I have.
That being said, my new monthly goals are:
"Positive May" Goals:
1.) Do 5 Hours of Yoga
2.) 6X 30 Day Shread
3.) 20 Hours of Cardio Activity
4.) Stay On Plan 30 Days
5.) Be at 180lbs by the end of the Month!
I cannot even express how happy being back in the 180's would feel for me. I was thinking this morning that, sticking to my plan, I could be the lowest weight of my adult life by the September rolls around, which would virtually mean a new me for the start of all the great things I am about to embark on in September...
I've got nothing but positive thoughts today and am going to try and hold onto that positivity for as long as possible!
Happy "Positive May"!
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