In late February I went to visit my family and had a life-changing conversation with my mom. We were sitting at the kitchen table when she told me that she didn't recognize me anymore because of the weight gain. She then went on to say that my weight breaks her heart.
The conversation was intiated by my complaints that i've hit road blocks in every area of my life - with my living situation, my job, my educational career, and the list goes on. My mom responded with something that really made me think, she said, "when you lose weight and get your outside looking like your inside, people will start looking at you for the good person you are and all the other areas in your life will improve and come together". The domino effect! Why have I never thought of that before. So simple and so motivating.
My mother, and her long history of commenting on my weight, broke my heart when she told me this. I literally couldn't stand to listen to her go on and on about our family's history of diabeties, heart disease, and other fat-related diseases. I got up from the kitchen table and went to the bathroom, took a good look in the mirror and vowed to myself that I would seriously committ and dedicate myself to myself - put myself first and resue Lisa from the 100 pounds that have taken over my appearence and life.
And thus, this conversation was my tipping point. When I returned home from my family's house I joined Weight Watchers online, and began an exercise routine that I would follow on a daily basis. March 1st, 2010: 233 pounds. This is the last day I will ever see that number on the scale.
I would have died if my Mom ever said anything about my weight, but I think its great that you took it to heart and let it have a positive impact on your life. It says a lot about your strength as a person :)
ReplyDeleteYou can do this girl!! And I look forward to sharing in your journey.