Today, I had a bit more success on the exercise front - I managed to squeeze in an hour walk on my lunch hour, which was not bad - remember folks, all activity is good!
However, today, thinking about where I am weight-wise, I have to say that I am feeling a bit discouraged. 196 lbs! I have to try really hard not to get mad at myself. It wasn't that long ago that I just broke into the 160's for Christ's sake. When I think about that, my blood just boils.
But, I know that I can't fester in all that guilt and self-hate - that would just be counter productive. The goal here is to lose weight, get healthy and love myself MORE not LESS!
Gotta keep my eyes on the prize and just keep truckin'. I have to remind myself of all the good things, like: it's very likely that i'll reach my weight loss goal this month AND just around the corner is the long lost 180's (oh, how i've missed you...) and with the 180's comes smaller pants sizes, oh, and more confidence.
Focusing on the good stuff can sometimes be hard when you have a long road ahead, but I would much rather have that hard than all that comes with self-hate!
Great victory getting a walk in at lunch!
ReplyDeleteAnd boy do I hear you about having to work hard to not be mad at yourself for re-losing weight. But you are right, it is not worth the energy, and it's so much better to love ourselves as we are.
Self love will lead to healthy choices, which will lead to healthy bodies. :-)